She’s Back

My voice inside has returned. It’s been almost two weeks since I let you guys inside my heart and head. I’ve been traveling, and just moving so fast that I haven’t tapped in lately. I’ve been a tad bit invested in some Ego, and living in the future. I’ve also developed some things internally that have me thinking. I have been waiting for my voice to click on, and finally she is back! 

Just now I was laying back thinking about the things that I want to manifest and accomplish. It dawned on me, that in my past I never viewed myself as good enough to receive love. I yearned for it, but I never realized that I carried the energy of believing I was unworthy of it. 

Each relationship that has failed was due to my own beliefs. With that realization it dawned on me that I need to clean up that belief and replace it with one that is beneficial. I want love, and I want love to want me too. I am genuinely just a tad bit tired of talking about it. I am ready to be, love. 

It’s time that with a new belief I take back my power. Release that heavy energy that is blocking my very blessing. I don’t enjoy nor do I want to be the reason why I don’t receive exactly what it is I want. I want to reach new heights and experience what I have always dreamed of. 

I couldn’t hold back with this post. I had to share because I know there are so many other women like me. You needed to read this. I needed you to read this. We deserve love….. it’s our natural born right and we deny ourselves of it. It’s not them, it’s us. It’s our thoughts, our beliefs, our very own energy we carry. 

We deserve so much better and in order to receive better we need to start realizing it. We are not meant to stay stagnant and repeat the same thing over and over. We’re meant to expand and with that expansion comes love. There is no cap on the amount of love that can be given and received. 

I can’t even begin to tell you how inspired I feel right now in this moment of self-reflection. I really hope that you can grasp what I am saying and feel it within. I want change and something tells me you do to. 

xoxo 

Kaylen Zahara

 

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11 thoughts on “She’s Back

  1. Motivational doesn’t even begin to describe the way this blog post made me feel, I know I’m myselfs biggest critic and I’ve always told myself that I’m not good enough, pretty enough, tall enough or sassy enough to be loved or for a matter of fact even merely liked by someone.. So thanks Kay for the validation that I need reflect on me and do some serious soul searching, I’m literally crying like an idiot because this meant more then you can ever imagine !!

  2. This touched me to my core!! I can totally relate. I am a recovering Heroin addict. (2yrs Sober) I was raised in a dysfunctional family that taught me all the wrong ways to love. I’ve been in nothing but abusive relationships. I thought that it was normal. I thought that I didn’t deserve any better. How could I expect anyone to love me when I didn’t love myself!? After 20 years of addiction (I’m 36), I had so much guilt, anger,regret, and embarrassment deeply rooted in my soul that I never thought anyone could ever love me!! On June 2, 2014 I was given a blessing. I found out that I was pregnant. From that moment forward, I vowed to never pick up again! Since that day..I’ve slowly began to learn what love is supposed to be like. And I deserve love just as much as the next!! With a lot of soul searching, therapy, and my daughter (now 19 months).. I’ve learned to forgive and love myself! I just ended a 15 year relationship because he wouldn’t get sober. Before, I would have never had the strength to do that. I’m still learning, but I do know that love starts from within!!! I will NEVER again allow myself to settle for anything but the absolute best. Because today…I know that I deserve nothing but Love and respect!!! May the Lord guide you on your journey, as he continues every day to do on mine!!! 😘😘

  3. Hi kaylen your a big inspiration to me im from the netherlands and i always watch ur videos . I think the way that you represent yourself is truly beautiful to see there are not many women like you . You should be really proud of yourself , your one of a kind . I did have 1 question . IM about to go to a new class where i dont know anybody i dont know if im socially skilled enough to make new friends and how do i even know if they want to be friends with me ? How would you handle this situation if you were 16 years old.
    Im not shy or anything like that but im not very sure what is gonna happen and i dont like that feeling.

    Thank you very much , i love you

    1. Hi babe, thank you. I advice that you just be yourself & don’t worry about making friends. Trust that there will be great people you will meet that will genuinely like you without your effort. Focus on the studies and everything else will fall into place. Don’t change, embrace yourself. You’ve got this?

  4. “It dawned on me, that in my past I never viewed myself as good enough to receive love.” This is exactly how I feel and just getting my head out of this space is the hardest thing for me. You’re lucky you were able to. How do you do it?

  5. a powerful truth is that the quality of relationships and experiences is determined by the quantity of love you have for yourelf, and i don’t believe i’ve come across anything where you’ve stated that you truly, and completely, love yourself. so maybe what you need to place that focus in is loving yourself more and not love from an external source. become completely comfortable with your solitude and find comfort in your aloneness. your ability to truly be in sacred communion with the universe, yourself, your strengths, weaknesses – and the corners of your being you are possibly reticent to explore – reflect the degree to which your current outer circumstances honour your most sacred inner self and truth.

    1. Thank you for the post. I am, which most of my viewers and supporters know…. is I am on a journey of healing, learning, and growing. So yes, you, just like others who know my journey are aware by observing of what it is I am working on.

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